I just read "How to break up with your binge monster" over at http://thedailydietribe.com and so much rang true with me. Just last night, as my previous post states, I totally had a binge moment. I had eaten/drank a raw green smoothie for breakfast, but that was it until 3:30 pm when my husband got cookies. Then I went to work and has a personal pizza, then came home and had some chicken and salad (the only good semi healthy part of my binge), then I went on to eat 3 english muffins with butter and jelly. So not good. I just craved food and gave into to everything that I wanted. Today was a little better, but on my way to work, I totally screwed up. I, again, started my day with a raw green smoothie, then we had errands to run. I hate cookies on the way, but only 3 (as if that is ok). I did eat a salad for lunch which was a decent decision, but then on my way to work I bought 2, yes 2, muffins, one cranberry walnut that I ate on the way and a chocolate dream with chocolate frosting (which I only ate half and threw the other half right away). The muffins were not a good decision. Bad on all fronts for me. There is way too much sugar, wheat, dairy, and just generally unhealthy ingredients. Sometimes, I just can't say no.
I think I need to have a talk with my monster. I think literally a talk. I want to say out loud, that I will no longer eat things that hurt me. I want to tell my monster to leave me alone and that even though he thinks he is giving me what I need, all he is doing is causing me pain. Like Iris over at http://thedailydietribe.com mentioned, this is going to be an ongoing battle (ok the battle part is from me), but as time goes on, I will see my monster slowly but surely backing off and not coming around as much, hopefully some day never to return.
When I go home tonight, I am sure I will snack, but I want to make sure that I snack on something healthy. I will be snacking on carrot sticks and hummus, one of my new favorite snacks. I will be looking to eliminate wheat, gluten, and dairy from my diet as well as the other foods that are at least 3 on my blood test. I am thinking, not only will I be healthier, but I will hopefully lose weight and have more energy. The other thing that I need to do for my health is increase my exercise. Hopefully the nice weather will be here before I know it and I can go for walk with the kids. At least if the snow melts, I can get out with the stroller and walk, since right now there is no room on the sidewalks for a double wide stroller and there is little to no way I can fit in time to exercise with the kids around. Maybe I just need to get out of bed earlier.
I think the other thing that will help with my diet is to keep busy. I have many projects to work on and could be reading mroe blogs! If I keep my mind and my hands busy, maybe then I won't snack or at least be tempted to snack on things that are unhealthy for me to be eating. Plus, I love to read blogs, I love to work on projects and I have a ton of books that I can read!
Amy, who promises not to keep ruminating on my diet and diet failures!